Hoarder

I can't throw these away!!  Something is WRONG with me.
So…I took pics of them all and now can keep them forever in my blog books.
Brilliant.
But - I too will be framing a select few…how do you choose?!
 

Mayci is the creator.
I just love the details -
eyelashes. curls. fingers. toes.

Another too tough to throw out.

Sideways but a keeper!
"Dear tooth fairy, I am so glad I lost my toot (haha) I am wondering what your name is (with a complimentary line to fill in) What do you do with teeth
Love Raegan" 

Evan made up his own list for WalMart.
Number 4 made me laugh.  Then cry.

MAJOR CATCH UP!!

IZZY GIRL - This one's for you!  If this is the only post I get done today, you were my motivation to catch up.  These next few posts will have no rhythm or reason - but its history nonetheless!!

I wish I  could stay cozied up in my robe all day with this little one content on me right there!
I just don't wish for all the sickness this poor child has endured.

This came from Evan and made its way straight into my heart.
I won a medal of "Best Cook Award" from my one and only.
What a treasure.

Cute cousin hanging with us.  And suckers worked for him just as they have for all of mine!!

I believe this was a last minute run to WalMart for Halloween.
Of course.

And then we went to the park!!

Most beautiful Elsa you ever did see -
Out of all the 500 million pazillion out there -
She's wins!!
*Big thanks to Mimi for the perfect donation!*

She's about as round as a pumpkin -
so WHY NOT?!
Best squishiest cuddliest orange dream machine.
Love that smile more than words can express.

Raegan insisted on taking and sending this picture to our very own Hollywood Star -
Rags To Raches!!
To say this girl is proud to be the niece of Rags Inc. is an understatement.

Its ok to FEEL.

I can't begin to imagine or understand this kind of loss.  I remember so vividly when I tuned into this delicate and heart wrenching experience in my friends life.  It was when Mayci was just a few weeks old and was keeping Shawn and I up  from 8pm - 3am screaming.  Colic.  It was difficult to say the least BUT...how embarrassing to even think to complain.  I remember those nights so vividly.  Holding, rocking, feeding, stroking, consoling, humming, cuddling, loving, and crying.  A lot of crying.  Not for me.  But for my distant friend.  Who had this precious baby enter the gates of Heaven - taken from her arms and place so tenderly into our Heavenly Fathers - in just a blink.

As I stated earlier - I can't even begin to fathom the pain.  Confusion. Heart ache. Sorrow. Anger. Anxiety. Fear.  And all other feelings that I am not even equipped to list - because I have not been there.

BUT

As she states in this post - as she approaches this day - its a welcomed respite from routine?!
Although I don't have a day in my personal life that is tattooed on my heart that makes me FEEL this kind of pain...
I read her words and FEEL what I can with her.  I cry.  Big tears.  In my efforts to empathize with her.  I think of her.
And I am brought back to my own experiences of when this day happened for my friend.
And I am more grateful on this day than on most others - for my life.

The effort in empathizing.  The effort in feeling...for others...can wake those deep feelings and emotions that are otherwise not felt because of the daily routines of life.  I am grateful for this post...and really every one of her posts...because of her ability to wake me emotionally almost every.single.day.

But this one specifically answered something Ive always asked myself.
And Shawn will ask me too... 'Why? Why are you watching this Farrah?"
It could be a documentary on 9-11...
or a real life tragedy...
that will cause tears to stream down my face - but I can't stop watching.

Maybe this is why.  Its an effort to feel with others.  Feel their pain.  Feel those emotions that are otherwise asleep.  Realize there is a world beyond the one you live in everyday.
And feel empathy.  Think of them...not yourself.  Pray for them.
And then be ever more grateful.

I love you Natalie.
I think of you today.
And of your precious perfect baby Gavin.
And despite the pain you must feel - you still inspire.
Its a real gift straight from God.
And Im grateful everyday for it...and so are millions.
xoxo

Evan and Austin.

Why does this make me want to cry?!
I got some snap chats from Karalee at midnight last night and when I opened them...
I welled up with real big tears.

I can FULLY understand - although I don't have teenagers yet and until then I can't say that I COMPLETELY understand - that when people say enjoy them while they are young - that is goes SO  fast -
THIS SAYS ALL OF THAT!

Oh I miss that face.  Those cheeks.  Those hands.

Today and for as long as I possibly can, I will enjoy the NOW more fully and completely.
Because in a flash - ITS GONE!

Austin.  Really.
Look at those two.
Oh my heart.

Cousins. Friends. And lunch dates!

Had Cole over one morning.
Wesly had a grand ol' time making Cole laugh in these chairs.
It was cute to hear them 'play'.
Although she is still in the - " s'mine! " phase.
Translation: Thats mine!!!
And I mean EVERYTHING is hers!
 

SELFIE!
Shawn had literally walked through the door from flying in -
And we shuffled him right back out.
Off to the Annual Chili Cookoff.
I was robbed...guess my 'googled' chili can't win 1st every year.
The ward stepped up their game in the activities though!
Shawn was in charge of the 4-wheeler.
Wesly screamed when she had to take turns : (

I spy: Mayci. Porter. Cash. Lily. Kade. And T-Money!
All of Maycis close buddies - and a few cousins...got to see the firetrucks for a field trip.
And Miss Amy got to put all the gear on.
She rocks!!

I got to meet Evan for lunch this day.
Happened to be crazy hair day.
His won.
Love this boy more than words can say.

Great company.
#not
: )

Its about time! FALL!!!

I was hoping to rope someone into climbing the Y with me this weekend...not thinking Shawn would be around!
To my surprise - HE WAS!
And ended up being the lucky candidate to carry the over 40 pound pack up and down!
It was glorious.
I love this family I call my own!  Weird to see me in the pic : )

Perfect day...right?!

Loving dads company.
And Evans walking stick -
that the kids ended up fighting over it and sitting on the trail for a small time out...
but we won't mention that ever happened cause kids don't fight when they are supposed to be having fun...right?!
Stick got tossed back up into its family of trees...thank you stick.

Still haven't gotten enough of this goodness.
I could live in the mountains.
I really think I could...with the help of Shawns hunting skills...and some deodorant...Id be good.
Tinfoils. Smores. Fire. Stars. Fresh crisp air -
and 2 loads of laundry each trip.
Still worth it.

Wesly got to know uncle Coulton a little better.

So did Evan.  He really took an interest in Coultons beard.  Couldn't stop petting him.
Guess with the BYU job - he can't remember dad with anything but a little stubble.

Beautiful sister. We Love her.

A different trip.
A perfect picture.
Another 2 loads of laundry : )
I make the kids strip in the laundry room before they enter the house.
I love the smell of campfires - but not in there sheets!

A Sunday adventure to Tibblefork.
Getting colder - So we panic.
We try to capture every last bit of fresh air minus the snow!

Another night of tinfoils.
This time I pre-cooked them so we could just warm them and eat quickly.
Its torturous to wait:)
>>>I promise Elsies face didn't get 1st degree burns<<<
By the looks of this pic...Im not sure how she didn't!

Happenings lately.

Went to the store and she insisted I take a picture of her with LONG hair!
She begged for this hat...but she lost:)

Finally made it to the Museum of Curiosity << forgot the real name of it >> and it was a hit.
Unfortunately we went when everyone else did so every section we hit we had to shuffle out of for the next in line.
BUT
on a mellow day -
my kids could spend 12 hours there no problem.

Play Date Time!
A neighbor and I swap days and it is fantastic.  These two could play everyday.  All day.
I walked down to check on them and found them fully immersed in there 'puppet show.'
I couldn't get over their audience of dolls and stuffed animals.
TOO CUTE.
 >> If you noticed Evan...he came home from school sick.  Then suddenly started feeling better.  Strange huh?! <<

This girl, Mayci Jo Jo, is a tender mom at heart.  ALREADY!
The kitchen chair fell on Wes and pinned her to the floor.
I ran to her aide and sat with her on my lap.
Mayci quickly provided her sad little sister with all of her loves.
A blanky.  Her bottle.  And a binki.
She was so sweet.  And so worried about her.
She stood right there and rubbed her little head till Wes stopped crying.
Im already so grateful for her when she turns 12!!  : )

Wes has always been shy in photos.
Seeing Mayci HERE smile - when I said "SMILE" . . .

Wesly quickly jumped in and wanted part of the action!

So I took advantage.

Mayci was so excited for her aunt Kobie to babysit -
She set out a line of bedtime books for her to read.
Im sure Kobie was thrilled.

Doesn't get any cuter.
>> DUH <<

Oh wait...maybe it does.
Not me - of course.
Look at her smile.
Just cruisin' on Alpine Slide.
If anyone knows Wes - this smile means she just couldn't contain herself.  She has a way of hiding her smile.  Even at the funniest - most fun - thing ever.

Like this here...for example.  Not a single smile.
But loved every minute of it.
And so did I.

I am so blessed to have such great neighbors - that are more than neighbors!
They are friends.
Beautiful people...inside and out.
I fully believe that we landed here where we did with careful care and compassion -
Straight from the Heavens.

>> BLESSED <<

This was a morning hike up the Timp trail.
A short 1.5 miles up - but my hips sure are feelin' it.
L . O . V . E
Best time of year to enjoy this weather.
It was beautiful.